As of now, I am 34 years old and have not had any adult relationships. I have never even had so much as a freaking kiss. How do I come to terms with the sad reality that nobody will ever love me? As a result of social anxiety disorder, Asperger's, and ataxic cerebral palsy, I am suffering from these disorders. 

 I have had female friends before, but none of them have expressed interest in becoming a partner. I am feeling depressed and questioning if I am a part of this world or not. I refrain from using dating sites due to my lack of faith in their effectiveness and their high cost.

I would be grateful if you could share any comments you may have.